Post by menchie on May 4, 2014 14:59:11 GMT -6
Jinki's POV
November 14th, 2013
It was that time of year again. The time when all of the major music award shows happen. Today was the Melon Music Awards, and it will be a day I'll never forget.
Our group received a couple of awards already, which I admit is a good feeling. I mean, it's definitely okay if we didn't win something, but I believe deep down, we really do. We may smile through it and congratulate other artists for their achievement, but believe it or not, a little part of us die inside. Just a little.
It was almost time for us to perform, and we all went backstage. Everyone is getting ready to do their own little part of our older, but great, songs, reliving those moments that brought us to where we are today. Lucifer was the first part of our little highlight medley, so that means I was the first to go. Since I can't perform fully due to my neck pain, instead of just standing around, I will be standing on this metal swing. The swing was a bit small, but I know I'll be careful. No one has to worry about me, I promise.
It was time for me to go, the metal swing slowly raising up into the darkness. The music started to play, and I was feeling it. I was singing my heart out and then the long note. Instead of holding it for the normal amount of time, I held it for much, much longer. The crowd was going wild. Then, when no on expected it, I sang more. I sang that rare English part that we sometimes add. The crowd was still going insane.
My turn was done and it was time for the other members to shine. I came back down from the air and went back stage to change for Everybody. While waiting for the other members to come backstage to get ready, I was thinking about the three major awards that are given out at the end of the show. How nice it would be to win at least one of those. I can imagine all of us jumping in joy, giving our thank you speeches and have that feeling that our hard work paid off. But then, I sighed. I don't want to hope too much. I don't want to think we'll win but in the end we won't. I do believe our hard work will be recognized one day, but maybe not today. I know our fans will love us endlessly whether we win or not. They know we work hard and that support keeps us as a group, and as individuals, stronger.
While we were finishing getting ready for our next performance, EXO went ahead and performed to keep the crowd alive. I was already done and ready to go, continuing to think about those last three awards. Kibum walked towards me, noticing that I was in deep thought.
“Are you okay, hyung?”
“Yeah...I'm just thinking...”
“Jinki,” Kibum started. “Don't think too much about it. You're just going to torture yourself. Winning is not everything.”
I'm not surprised that Kibum knows what I'm thinking about. But I can tell there was a hint of hope for them to win when he was talking.
“You're right...thanks, Kibum.” It was the only thing I can say.
Kibum smiled at me then went back to wherever he came from, I don't remember. It was time for us to go back on stage to perform Everybody. I pushed all of these thoughts away and focused on what is about to happen. I was the first one to go on stage, leading the other members onto the stage. I then went back to the metal swing for the second time and was, not completely, secured. A few minutes later, I was lifted back into the air. I wish that I can perform the full choreography instead of swinging around this stupid metal thing, but what else can I do. I didn't just want to stand there and do nothing.
Everybody, wake up, wake up
I was looking at the crowd before me, seeing all of fans cheer and scream the fanchant. Little things like this inspire me. I gave my all during the song despite not being able to do very much while flying in the air. Every once in a while, I looked down and my members are doing well. I'm actually happy for us, and I think our fans can say the same.
The song came to an end and I was slowly brought down from the air. Minho was kind of enough to wait for me and made sure I got down safely. I truly appreciate to have caring dongsaengs with me and looking out for me. When I got off, we quickly went back to our seats. The most important part of the award show is about to come.
First up was song of the year. I knew for sure we weren't getting this one. The rightful winners for this award were EXO. When I heard their group getting called for winning, I was truly happy for them. We had our little celebration with hugging and congratulations. Only a few gave their speeches on stage and came to sit down, waiting for the next award.
The second award was album of the year. I had a little hope for this one, but not all that much. But of course, we didn't win. The winner was Busker Busker. Again, I was truly happy for them. They have good music and they really do deserve this award. The speeches came and went. My heart started to pound hard because the last award was coming.
Lastly, artist of the year. This is like the top award there is. If I had to be honest, I really wanted this award. We worked so hard this year with multiple comebacks, almost back to back. I want our hard work to be recognized this year. But then I started to think the negative side. Despite all that we did this year, was it truly appreciated? We've went years without receiving a huge award like this. Why would this year be any different? These days, everything is about quantity, not quality and hard work. Now I don't think we're going to win.
“The artist of the year goes to...” the MC spoke.
My heart is pounding harder on the inside, but on the outside, I showed nothing. I might as well lose hope now because there's almost no chance. I went ahead and clapped ahead of time for the group who is going to win this award. The MC took a long time to announce the winner, making the groups and fans eager to know who won. Next to me, Taemin was praying and Jonghyun was hoping. I wish I could do the same, but I can't stop thinking about the other winner and kept clapping. The MC smiled and spoke.
“SHINee!”
Then the world stopped. My world stopped.
Did I hear right? Did the MC actually say 'SHINee'? Or was I just hearing what I wanted to hear? I was frozen, trying to process what just happened. The whole world is celebrating around me but I was stuck. It wasn't until one of the EXO members grabbed my hands and pulled me from my seat to make me snap out of my thoughts. I still couldn't understand what happened or how, but I'm actually very happy.
Our group grabbed hands and skipped and ran towards the stage in joy. It's like how I wanted it to happen when I thought about this earlier. We were all smiles and couldn't believe this actually happened to us. The award was handed to Jonghyun and none of us could believe we actually have one of our own now. The most important award of the show and it belongs to us.
We eventually lined up so we can introduce ourselves.
“Hello, we are shining SHINee!”
As leader, I give the first speech. My mind was blank and I couldn't think of anything for a moment.
“I...I forgot what I was going to say...”
I waited a few seconds for my thoughts to catch up with me. I finally thanked everyone I could think of at the time. Lee SooMan, family, the members, fans. I tried my best even though I was still in shock. I could barely speak, but I tried everything I could to keep talking until I was done.
One by one the other members gave their speech. But also, one by one we started to cry. It was so unbelievable that our hard work as actually been paid off. But even though we're happy that we won, even though we finally got our long dream achievement, we kept saying that we don't deserve it. We kept saying we didn't work hard enough for this award. It's interesting how our thoughts change after we actually got what we wanted. Minho hugged me tightly, Taemin cried in front of everyone, Jonghyun cried into the microphone, Kibum cried, even our fans started crying, and all of these things makes me want to cry harder. We were so happy and our dreams came true.
After all of our speeches, we had a group hug. We had a moment to share our happiness and love to one another. We didn't exchange any words, but we all knew that we thought of the same things.
After some more fun on stage with EXO, it was time to go back backstage. All of us got into dressing room. There was silence, and we looked at each other. Then we just broke. None of us could contain our emotions anymore and we cried more. We cried harder and louder than we did on stage. Kibum, Minho, Jonghyun and Taemin started to hug again, simply sharing their emotions with each other. I wasn't really watching and continued to cry on my own. That is until the other four came up to me. I looked up at them, our red, tear-filled eyes meeting. Minho then pulled me up and smiled.
“We did it, hyung. We did it.”
I smiled as well, then a noise escaped from my lips reminding me that I haven't stopped crying. Right away, Kibum hug me tightly and I hugged back. Then Minho, Jonghyun and Taemin followed by circling around me and hugged me, leaving me in the middle of my members embrace. We cried for a little bit longer, whispering our happiness to each other. I can feel each others love for one another, how we are happy that we have each other. It was like one happy family celebration. We wished for this for as long as I can remember, and today marks the day that our wish came true.
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A/N: I guess I'm first to post a fanfic...hehe
Jinki's point of view of their MMA win!
I told some of you that I was going to post this on SFI...but I didn't yet. u.u
Anyway, this was just something short and quick that I decided to write. Nothing special. xD
whisper ninja!onkey whisper
Enjoy! ^^
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A/N: I guess I'm first to post a fanfic...hehe
Jinki's point of view of their MMA win!
I told some of you that I was going to post this on SFI...but I didn't yet. u.u
Anyway, this was just something short and quick that I decided to write. Nothing special. xD
whisper ninja!onkey whisper
Enjoy! ^^
